My coworker went on vacation for two weeks.. So we completely cleared out his cubicle and turned it into a crime scene.
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Thursday, July 29, 2010
Untitled
Unimportant
I used to blog all the time. For everything. "Today, I went to school. In band we had a playing test and I did okay. The trumpets need to practice sooo much though! In Anatomy, Nicole and I talked the whole time, and Mr. Persechina rolled his eyes and made fun of us. It's cuz we're white, I'm certain! I did absolutely nothing in AP Stats cuz AP testing is done and Mr. Snider doesn't care about what we do now, for the next 2 months.. In Civics, Mr. Moore came in and teased Mr. Tran about drinking Diet Coke.. I didn't learn anything in class other than what I've learned from West Wing. English was interesting. Sometimes I wonder why I didn't just suck it up and take AP English. Normal English is easy, but I'm not learning anything. Then I ditched 6th period to go hang out with the boys. We really didn't do anything."... Hahah.. Anyways, I'm glad I'm over that phase. I don't blog unless I have something I feel should be said. "Maybe this will change the world".. Or if not the world, than just affect someone's day in some way, shape, or form. Whether it puts a smile on their face, a wrinkle in their brow, or a thought in their mind that will sit there for weeks.. But I don't feel like I have anything to say right now. Well, not anything meaningful. But here's some random bullet point thoughts I've been having. - I'm ridiculously thankful for my God, and I'm having deep sadness recently for people who don't know Him. Especially my friends. - I am learning it is getting harder the older I get to give advice to my non-Christian friends. I give them advice, they tell me they don't want my "Bible opinion", they want my "normal person opinion". Trying to explain that, for me, I have one opinion has been the topic of many conversations. I'm determined not to back down. - I'm no longer pursuing friendships that are one sided or that I feel I can't trust the other person. Trust is a huge deal, and if I can't trust you, then you're just a normal person to me. Those "friendships" are at the same level of depth as a person I just met. I don't hate those people, I don't have hard feelings toward them, I don't wish that they have no friends. I'm just choosing to not deal with the heartache associated with them anymore. - I am ridiculously thankful for Phillip. I'm not going into detail, but I thank God for his friendship every day. - I had an ex get engaged. The news didn't affect me at all, which was exciting. Haha. I'm happy for him! - I have friends on the extreme ends of dating. Some friends that are dating purely for the sake of not being alone. Some people that "realize" dating is meant to lead to marriage, but are okay with dating someone with no intent of it being serious. And some friends who just GET IT.. Lol.. It's rather interesting to be observing it all. - I'm intrigued to see what this next school year is going to bring. People going away, people staying here, people going to school, people working. I think that's it for now!
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Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Fear
I wish I had something beautiful to write about. Well, I do. God's love is a beautiful thing. But right now, at 1 AM on a night when I have work in 8 hours.. I don't have nearly enough time to go into detail on that.. But His love is beautiful and I am ridiculously grateful for that every single day.
I guess what I could write about now is fear. Right now, I have this ridiculous fear for next week. And I know that I really shouldn't worry. He's smart, he knows what he's doing. He's going with someone that knows what they're doing. There's technically nothing to worry about. But.. There's that little piece of me that worries. What if something happens. What if they get lost. What if they eat something bad. What if they run into an animal that isn't friendly. What if they run into hunters that don't realize they aren't animals. What if a cliff shows up out of nowhere.
Wow. And now as I type that out, the fear is a lot more real, because all of that stuff could really, truly happen. And it's not just all of that happening, but it's the fact that they probably won't have cell phone service, so we won't know if anything's happening until a day or two after they were to come back. What if something happens Friday night, and since they aren't supposed to come back until the next Friday, there's no reason my fear to be spiked until the next Saturday.. But by then, it's been a week.
It's in God's hands. And I know he's not worried at all. This is me and my protective nature hating that I have no control over the situation. Which is totally fine, because it's not my life and it's something that he's been looking forward to for months. It's just weird. And nervewracking. And a freaking-out-ed-ness that I've never felt before. Or if I have, it was strictly an overnight thing. Not a week.
I went to the Philippines for two weeks, and there was never a thought in my mind about the fear of what could happen. But this is one week in northern California, with me here in Southern California.. That will involve a lot of prayer and a lot less text messages and a lot more time to myself.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
I guess what I could write about now is fear. Right now, I have this ridiculous fear for next week. And I know that I really shouldn't worry. He's smart, he knows what he's doing. He's going with someone that knows what they're doing. There's technically nothing to worry about. But.. There's that little piece of me that worries. What if something happens. What if they get lost. What if they eat something bad. What if they run into an animal that isn't friendly. What if they run into hunters that don't realize they aren't animals. What if a cliff shows up out of nowhere.
Wow. And now as I type that out, the fear is a lot more real, because all of that stuff could really, truly happen. And it's not just all of that happening, but it's the fact that they probably won't have cell phone service, so we won't know if anything's happening until a day or two after they were to come back. What if something happens Friday night, and since they aren't supposed to come back until the next Friday, there's no reason my fear to be spiked until the next Saturday.. But by then, it's been a week.
It's in God's hands. And I know he's not worried at all. This is me and my protective nature hating that I have no control over the situation. Which is totally fine, because it's not my life and it's something that he's been looking forward to for months. It's just weird. And nervewracking. And a freaking-out-ed-ness that I've never felt before. Or if I have, it was strictly an overnight thing. Not a week.
I went to the Philippines for two weeks, and there was never a thought in my mind about the fear of what could happen. But this is one week in northern California, with me here in Southern California.. That will involve a lot of prayer and a lot less text messages and a lot more time to myself.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:6
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